So we did it. We made it to Florida as a group of three: two kiddos and one adult. This one was great. All she needed was a Charlie and Lola dvd and she was set.
This one, however, took a bit more work. She’s a tummy sleeper, so it’s kind of tricky for her to fall asleep on her back. But when I discovered that Ami was of some solace to her, I let her pull out Ami’s stuffing to her heart’s content. She fell asleep with that stuffing all over her.
The truth is that today my heart feels a lot like Ami’s face. It’s a big, open wound in need of mending. It’s disjointed, disheveled, exposed and spilling out all over the place. Today my brother got divorced, and even though I flew several hundred miles south away from everything, I haven’t escaped how my heart feels. Josh is flying to China while we’re gone and even if I flew those thousands of miles there with him, drove to the northernmost edge of Mongolia, dug a 52,403-foot hole and crawled down into it, I still could look down to see this dull blade sticking out of my chest. What has happened has pained me deeply, more than my words can convey, and the healing process is a long and uphill journey. I can only imagine that his former wife feels much the same way, yet even more so. Please pray for her. Nothing, save the coming of the Lion of Judah, will be able to restore my heart in this area until I go home to be with Jesus. I am grateful to the Lord for my children, who have brought me such immense joy throughout this time of pain. Watching them grow next to one another has given me much light in a time of deep darkness. And laughter with them has been the best salve for my heart. I covet your prayers, if you are the praying kind.