living in change

I've really felt a lack of motivation to blog lately. Maybe it's because my house (and my life) has/have been in a constant state of change and that is not an easy thing for me. I want to think that I am a person who likes change, but I think I only like change when I can look back upon it and assess it. I really like things that are predictable. I like things in their place. If you've ever been to my house when it's perfect and in order, that is when I function best. I like to be able to walk around my house when it's dark and know exactly where everything is. That can be a comforting thing, but I think it can also be crippling. Let's just say that I'm in the midst of being stretched and it is really good for me. I'm so grateful that we are able to build a playroom in our house right now, but it's been really hard for me to keep order during this time. I like to go upstairs every night when my brother-in-law is gone and dream about how I'm going to decorate and beautify the space. I can't wait to take a picture of the completed project because I have this vision for it, and I want to see it come to fruition. I can see the color on the wall and the order in the room and the inviting environment I want it to be for everyone who plays there, but the waiting part is really a challenge for me. I know this project is good for me, but it's hard. I haven't even picked up my camera in over a week. That's crazy for me. It's time to pick it up again. In the meantime, here's a few old photos of the end of our time at the farm. I can't even begin to express my gratefulness for Raccoon Ranch. We had a great time while we were there. And for all the other pictures I didn't post, you can always check out my flickr stream.







Seriously. It's not posed. This is just Josh.